I can't wait until Monday

I know i will but this has been the longest week of my life. I will see my family doctor for medication. I didn't think i would ever take medication for depression. I don't care anymore. I have to stop feeling this way. I missed most of last week for work. My manager and my mangager's manager are contacting me an making me jump through the hoops for short term disability. I am so afraid this is going to break me and I will never be able to work there again. I hate myself. I know I shouldn't but I do. this is only a moment in time.. it has to get better.