Saw a Psychologist today

I had a first visit with a psychologist today. Mostly it was just giving a family history, why I am depressed, general get to know me. She seems nice enough. We'll see how it goes. I am in a serious rut! She suggested meds and I told her that I am highly resistant to taking anything. We'll see if she tries to push them again. I wonder if I had a job that I enjoyed if I would even be depressed at all. I know my home life isn't perfect but I don't feel the intense pressure at home, like I do at work. Oh well no need to wonder, I don't have a different job and I won't have one anytime soon unless I get laid off.

I wish it were easier for people to leave comments on this blog. Sorry I would rather have it be hard I guess, rather than let the spam bots leave all of their cute little comments.

Anyone else having a hard time out there, Hang in there!

Will I make it?

I don't know if I will be able to make it at my job... I think it is making me crazy. I have to earn an income to support my family. I don't want to change jobs or careers. I have made it this far. Unless I get laid off, I guess I will be able to keep going. I mean what are the chances that I actually have a mental breakdown. Pretty low I think. Do my kids know how unhappy I am? I hope that they can find happiness, and not be affected by my dissatisfaction with life. I seem so selfish, why can't I just be happy... for their sake.

Crazy-Sanity or Crazy-Insanity

You can make the call which you think the name of this site came from.